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| "Glacier National Park" photo by Aaron Springston |
ACIM Workbook Lesson #59:
Today we review Lessons 41-45.
As a child, I had a recurring dream of walking on the edge of a razor blade, with deepest outer space surrounding me. It wasn't painful, nor frightening, it just was. It seemed I could fall off at any moment, but there was no fear of that either. Sometimes it feels as though we're walking a tightrope in this life, with erroneous thought everywhere other than the straight and narrow way. Throughout the first forty years of my life, I indulged what is often termed an addictive personality. I really liked alcohol, marijuana, amphetamines, men -- well, you get the idea. Those indulgences fell by the wayside when I embarked on a deep spiritual study and quest for change. But in the last few years, I've found myself allowing food to become somewhat of an idol to me. In an effort to break this illusion, I decided to go on a five-day green juice fast. While this has facilitated a letting go of caffeine and a break in the compulsion to eat whatever is in sight, it has also brought to my attention what I've been doing. That is, falling into old habits of material pleasure, rather than seeking first the kingdom of heaven within. In that resting place, everything falls into place and is witnessed by balance. Now I step back and ask myself what I'm really hungry for. Interestingly, the documentary which broke the miasma of materiality for me is appropriately entitled "Hungry For Change". I am grateful for having been drawn into a structured fasting situation, wherein I have experienced more than a physical change. I have seen a shift which has always been there, waiting for me to change gears and catch up, showing me Life through true Vision rather than personal sense.
Mary Baker Eddy quote:
"This scientific sense of being, forsaking matter for Spirit, by no means suggests man's absorption into Deity and the loss of his identity, but confers upon man enlarged individuality, a wider sphere of thought and action, a more expansive love, a higher and more permanent peace."
Science & Health Page 265:10-15
